The Viagra Chronicles

We went a few guys after work to watch Avatar in the cinema. Eddie made a joke of the director being hooked on Viagra when he planned this movie (all the creatures there are blue).

I have a confession to make. Shit I hate this. I don’t write so often and then when I do is only to bring my stupid confession. Probably you’re looking for some Viagra information or whatever, and here’s me with my silly little life…Well anyway, it’s Adam. Remember this guy from my last post, the Viagra gay? So two days after our flirt on the sofa, I come home after work to find Louis taking two Advils. Louis is not the druggie guy, he almost never take medication unless it’s really bad. He told me he had a really bad headache, and that it’s probably a side effect from the use of Viagra for two long.

We went to sleep early that day, Louis in pain and I’m thinking about Adam. Next morning I give him a call. He’s happy to hear my voice, I ask him (‘a weird question I have for you’) if he ever had this headache as a side effect of Viagra, he says sure, it may happen sometimes. I called Louis and broke him the news, that it doesn’t mean it will happen now all the time. It comes and goes, he can continue use the Viagra safely. I think he knew that already, he wasn’t at all interested to hear more about it. For sure he wasn’t interested to hear about my new gay friend.

I didn’t tell him but Adam invited me to this party his friend had in a bar that weekend. I went there alone. I don’t know why but I felt it was for the best. Told Eddie it was someone from work, and that he should go out as well, some quality time without each other.

No, I won’t tell you everything here. Just that he was gorgeous, even more than I remembered. He bought me drinks and treated me like a princess (or a prince?), and we took some drugs together, and we stayed in the dark back room, where we kissed for hours, and made love. It was love, I’m sure. And I’m still in it, I’m in love with my gay friend.

I asked him afterwards if he have sex with women often and he smiled and said ‘no’. I didn’t want to ask more than that, it’s not my business yet. He didn’t mention Louis at all. I asked him at the end, still in this dark room with lots of kissing and licking sounds around us, I asked Adam if he took Viagra that night. He said he didn’t need to, he was hard enough to continue all night with me if I could.

I still have his smell all over my face and my body, his saliva all over me, I’m still there.

This week was hell. I need to delete my sms from Adam but I cannot, I want to read them again and again. It can cost me, I know.

what should I do?? Louis is so good to me, but I can’t and won’t stop my heart for no one.

Love,

Ella the confused Viagra Wife